Journey Out of Hiding

Well, had to "meet Jesus" again. I was there this morning, so it's not like it's been too long or anything like that. Just fear slithered in and kept growing bigger, stronger. Wow, what a liar and what a stealer; lost peace is lost life. What a believable though unwelcome guest. So much a lie, feeling so true. True enough the body starts to react to it. It believes it! I haven't faced that level of fear in awhile. I am thankful it was exposed. It came from very real places that I have been, places I didn't see how God existed in my past in quite the light I now do, but I found him there today as I faced it. Uh, let me rephrase that, as I fell on my face before my maker whimpering for whatever was needed. Yeah, that's more like what it looked like. I am thankful because now I see Him in this thing that is terrify me, He is a little more "real" in my thinking now. Now I'm perfectly good, but I have no idea how many times we will ha...

I had the idea to write this blog ten years ago. I've spent those ten years trying to figure out what I was supposed to write. I have just realized that I don't have a clue and that just maybe, the beauty of God is so big that that's okay.  Maybe it's just a 'creative outlet'. Wouldn't that be cool? To tell you the truth, I really haven't thought so. I have thought that everything must have a purpose, must be trying to perform a good deed. Be a spoke in the wheel, have a purpose. I didn't know I did. Well, I don't think so anymore. Have you noticed people? We do some of the oddest things for some of  the silliest reasons, and still Jesus came to get us, to submit himself to men to be killed in a death that could never hold him. They have great respect for us, this Trinity that submitted to that; far more than we have for ourselves. It's humbling and oh so lifting of the spirit as well. A good goal for me today is to live like we are loved,...