Healing is Incremental....
It sure is!! This is a quote from the book The Shack, author Wm. Paul Young. He said it was his favorite line from his book.
It does not sound like a 'good' thing, incremental healing, we want it quick don't we? I remember back in the first years, oh.. well, maybe up until just the last few, but who's counting anyway? I was always thinking "This has just GOT to be the last time!" The last time what you may be wondering? The last time something awful had to come out of me, or that I had to go through some awful emotions to come out the other side still with Jesus instead of wanting to be in some insane asylum somewhere. Like a quote from a movie, "Oh, to go out of my mind and to come back when I was in a fit state to drive it again!". She was going through a hard time, and not acting like 'herself'. Leaving her senses sounded like a blessed relief; only it didn't come, she still had to deal with her life messy as it was.
I said in my last post that I began something new recently. Oh! It's been alternately wonderful and just horrid. Some waves or onslaughts of those terrible, awful, no good emotions have assailed me once again. But I can truly say with all of my hearts agreement, healing is incremental. I have been at places mentally, emotionally that feelings like that just caused me to want to die. This time we got through, we, I did not do it alone. I'm talking about the Helper Jesus said would come when He had to go away in John 14:16 (I could be wrong on the address). It's just, I'm finding out about God in new ways, that He is so much more. I'm always finding out more and always amazed, but this is why right now.
When I was stuck and I mean really stuck in my emotions, controlled by them, I could not do anything. Well, I did somethings, but I was so controlled, stopped, held in place by paralyzing fear. And in this new thing, sometimes those emotions have visited, I'm sure trying to get me to do the same, but something has changed, healing has been happening. Incrementally. It's been changing my life so my life can change, and become more like what Jesus said he came to give us. "But I came that they might have life, and have it more abundantly" here and now. That one is in John 10:10.
I wish I could tell you everything, how and why, but all you really need to know is Who. He who loves you more than you could ever love yourself, more than anyone could ever love you. He is they remember? The Trinity, one of those things no one ever expects to understand, so we don't try. Well, I've come to think it's worth it to think about a little bit. If my God is one who is 'over there', distant and alone, that God cannot love. Our God, the true God is not alone, nor over there. He is here, in and with; and they are three in one. Like three seats facing each other... and all of us, all creation is in the midst of them, always has been and always will be. You are never alone. Truths like this, held on to and them reached out for in the midst of the crazies, (I have em', anyone else raise their hand?) and the terrors... these are really bad, dread is terrible; but not too big for Him, them to help. He's been getting me through this stuff for over 15 years now, healing is incremental, Yes! But it is real healing! It's real change. amen
It does not sound like a 'good' thing, incremental healing, we want it quick don't we? I remember back in the first years, oh.. well, maybe up until just the last few, but who's counting anyway? I was always thinking "This has just GOT to be the last time!" The last time what you may be wondering? The last time something awful had to come out of me, or that I had to go through some awful emotions to come out the other side still with Jesus instead of wanting to be in some insane asylum somewhere. Like a quote from a movie, "Oh, to go out of my mind and to come back when I was in a fit state to drive it again!". She was going through a hard time, and not acting like 'herself'. Leaving her senses sounded like a blessed relief; only it didn't come, she still had to deal with her life messy as it was.
I said in my last post that I began something new recently. Oh! It's been alternately wonderful and just horrid. Some waves or onslaughts of those terrible, awful, no good emotions have assailed me once again. But I can truly say with all of my hearts agreement, healing is incremental. I have been at places mentally, emotionally that feelings like that just caused me to want to die. This time we got through, we, I did not do it alone. I'm talking about the Helper Jesus said would come when He had to go away in John 14:16 (I could be wrong on the address). It's just, I'm finding out about God in new ways, that He is so much more. I'm always finding out more and always amazed, but this is why right now.
When I was stuck and I mean really stuck in my emotions, controlled by them, I could not do anything. Well, I did somethings, but I was so controlled, stopped, held in place by paralyzing fear. And in this new thing, sometimes those emotions have visited, I'm sure trying to get me to do the same, but something has changed, healing has been happening. Incrementally. It's been changing my life so my life can change, and become more like what Jesus said he came to give us. "But I came that they might have life, and have it more abundantly" here and now. That one is in John 10:10.
I wish I could tell you everything, how and why, but all you really need to know is Who. He who loves you more than you could ever love yourself, more than anyone could ever love you. He is they remember? The Trinity, one of those things no one ever expects to understand, so we don't try. Well, I've come to think it's worth it to think about a little bit. If my God is one who is 'over there', distant and alone, that God cannot love. Our God, the true God is not alone, nor over there. He is here, in and with; and they are three in one. Like three seats facing each other... and all of us, all creation is in the midst of them, always has been and always will be. You are never alone. Truths like this, held on to and them reached out for in the midst of the crazies, (I have em', anyone else raise their hand?) and the terrors... these are really bad, dread is terrible; but not too big for Him, them to help. He's been getting me through this stuff for over 15 years now, healing is incremental, Yes! But it is real healing! It's real change. amen
Hi Amy, I'm a fellow survivor of abuse and on my own recovery journey. "The Shack" brought me to tears over and over. It changed the way I think about God forever. God used the book to open my eyes to seeing Him in a different light, in a way I could understand Him and start to trust Him. I'm grateful for the incremental healing in my head and heart. God's way allowed me to take the healing deep into my being in one area at a time. I expect this journey to last the remainder of my life.
ReplyDeleteWow, here is January again. I apologize for not seeing your comment. I love it! I live it too;).
DeleteYes, it probably will last all of our lives, the getting to understand more of God; yet I do believe there will be a point, where we can rest and where that rest stays. Paul Young says Joy stayed, and he says too it was like he read Joy's blog which said that Paul stayed. I am believing for this, it's a guarantee in Heaven so I am standing on that God can do it here, but doesn't have to for me to trust them.
Have you read The Shack Revisited by Baxter Kruger? Wow that one is good. It is backing up the theology behind the Shack.
Blessings!
Amy