Journey Out of Hiding

I love days like the last post, when I'm fighting back and in the game, etc. Today was not one of those days, and this is what I really want to share with people, so they too can experience it, because Holy Spirit is with them too.  I got hit, I didn't quite 'get it' right when it happened, but my whole countenance changed for the whole day.  I was still me, but I was 'affected' and it was like I was moving slower, through mud.  I felt hit, I didn't know why. I didn't know what it made me think, how ridiculous of me to assume I could.  Instead, I went on to the 'next thing' in my day and just resisted; tried to ignore. That wins the fight, in some people's minds, but in fact, it really does not, it just puts it aside for later. Now, I'm going to preface a little bit, because that's what I do. I do not know if you can have a relationship with God without dealing with past issues. I can't. He won't let me, well that is n...

Proposed; if our mind is capable of simultaneously working on a task, work, study, and worrying, or planning dinner, or replaying the last conversation we had with someone, then shouldn't it also be able to turn to God instead?  I say this because I am sitting here studying, using my brain, and it is distracted by all of those kinds of thoughts I mentioned. Mostly I'm caught thinking about things that are not going on right now. Now, the only I know how to avoid, or recover those thoughts is to stop and talk it out to God. That is all fine a good but I do not always have the time, to stop, look and listen , as the saying goes. I can pause for a minute and turn from the task at hand to ask for His assistance and  I think that is appropriate; for who is to be our source anyway, work? I think not. So, who is to say my mind cannot be 'face to face' with God when I am also doing thinking?  I mean, all these other thoughts are going on, and I am just trying to ignore them l...

The  I gotta be right  thing  also carries the fear of death if I am wrong. That fear of death that  the author of Hebrews talks about in 2:14-15, "   and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all of their lives."  The who might free those, is Jesus. This means my brothers and sisters and I who also suffer from debilitating fears that people cannot see.  There is so much more about Jesus in this chapter, he came for us, not leaving us alone.  "Therefore, since the children share in flesh and blood, He Himself likewise also partook of the same , (meaning our flesh and blood) that through death He might render powerless him who had the power of death, that is, the devil,   and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all of their lives ."  I have been praying about this for years, always he has lead me to peace for the day through  truth. Equally always, there is one day enoug...

This gotta be right, thing; the never ending looking for what to do, is sometimes just trying to decide what is the most right ?  Every freedom is incremental. The revelations of truth are sudden and frees the feelings immediately and it feels like it is going to last forever, but we are more complex than that so learning to walk in the new truth takes time. I had left the blogging and was doing life when I a memory of myself in my childhood came floating around my consciousness. When I was between 2-4, a situation happened that made me very afraid. Wondering if this was just my imagination or was Holy Spirit going to reveal something to me, something about it started to make sense in relation to the I gotta do it right revelation I shared in the last post. In my fear of the circumstance that was going on I had conjured up an image of myself that was older, she would be able to protect me. The interpretation of this seems to be that I decided to cover my vulnerability w...

I just love how he sorts out my emotions for me. My participation is making the choice to give him my full attention and to wait with him. I have to ask for his help to quiet my own racing thoughts, especially when I'm emotional.  I usually finally end up saying, " I just want to hear You". Meaning ,  I don't want to hear my thoughts for awhile, those aren't helping me right now. Today's help was no different, clearing my perspective of something I got caught up in again yesterday. I didn't know what it was, I just knew I have had this feeling before, and I didn't like it. He, peace, was so far away from it. He revealed to me that I was thinking again that we need to have it all right, like just right, and if I don't I won't be allowed "in"; into the good life with Him.  This is a catch of mine, I always wanted to do it right.  That I have to believe perfectly, have all the truth down cold in order to please him, to get to be wit...