Another layer of Incremental Healing from Gotta be Right
The I gotta be right thing also carries the fear of death if I am wrong. That fear of death that the author of Hebrews talks about in 2:14-15, " and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all of their lives." The who might free those, is Jesus. This means my brothers and sisters and I who also suffer from debilitating fears that people cannot see.
There is so much more about Jesus in this chapter, he came for us, not leaving us alone. "Therefore, since the children share in flesh and blood, He Himself likewise also partook of the same, (meaning our flesh and blood) that through death He might render powerless him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all of their lives."
I have been praying about this for years, always he has lead me to peace for the day through truth. Equally always, there is one day enough accumulated truth in a specific area of my mind, and that group of lies does not catch me anymore. And in truth when we get there, I barely notice it, because he is always simultaneously working on other areas as well to bring about complete liberation from all the binds me to slavery of emotions.
Someday we will be completely done, He has accomplished total freedom by becoming incarnate, that flesh and blood with us. By submitting to us on the cross and being raised into glory, and he has included us in that, we are also dead to sin and law, and raised with them in their relationship today, but ideas! The wrong ideas bring about destruction. So He does not quit interceding for us until we know the truth we need to know. Our mind is cluttered with lies that are like a mass tangle of brush and huge trees that block an amazing view of him and he is way too gentle and loving to come by and knock one of those huge trees down and ripping us up in the process. He is tediously tenacious and also patient, he waits until we are willing. Often the pain of trying it another way is what it takes to make us so. He's not in a hurry, he is working on us finding the freedom he has bought us more than we are, and he is going down every road we do, with us. All our war torn parts are already in Him and he is infinitely tender with them.
Today I saw a picture of when I was in that time when the very scary thing happened and the enemy helped me come up with a plan to free myself, be responsible, be right. Protect myself from that which would harm me, no 'other' will. This was another in a long line that turned out to teach me not to trust anyone but what do laws do? They excite the flesh, so alternately I have been enslaved to others opinion of me; running from this one to that one crying, "Give me, give me, take my rags and give me proper clothing" -- a covering for my shame that I did not know that Jesus has already done for me, for us.
So, here was this little girl who I now know, in her head was being bent toward being responsible for herself, not believing herself being worth anyone else taking care for. and I see her little face and Holy's thoughts come, should she feel responsible for herself? Can she be? And I cry a little, how to let it go?! Incrementally. Meaning, today, make the choice again to let it go, and trust in the One you know inside is trustworthy, even though there is still some brush and huge rooted trees in the way that make you think He is not. Amen (so be it Lord)
There is so much more about Jesus in this chapter, he came for us, not leaving us alone. "Therefore, since the children share in flesh and blood, He Himself likewise also partook of the same, (meaning our flesh and blood) that through death He might render powerless him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, and might free those who through fear of death were subject to slavery all of their lives."
I have been praying about this for years, always he has lead me to peace for the day through truth. Equally always, there is one day enough accumulated truth in a specific area of my mind, and that group of lies does not catch me anymore. And in truth when we get there, I barely notice it, because he is always simultaneously working on other areas as well to bring about complete liberation from all the binds me to slavery of emotions.
Someday we will be completely done, He has accomplished total freedom by becoming incarnate, that flesh and blood with us. By submitting to us on the cross and being raised into glory, and he has included us in that, we are also dead to sin and law, and raised with them in their relationship today, but ideas! The wrong ideas bring about destruction. So He does not quit interceding for us until we know the truth we need to know. Our mind is cluttered with lies that are like a mass tangle of brush and huge trees that block an amazing view of him and he is way too gentle and loving to come by and knock one of those huge trees down and ripping us up in the process. He is tediously tenacious and also patient, he waits until we are willing. Often the pain of trying it another way is what it takes to make us so. He's not in a hurry, he is working on us finding the freedom he has bought us more than we are, and he is going down every road we do, with us. All our war torn parts are already in Him and he is infinitely tender with them.
Today I saw a picture of when I was in that time when the very scary thing happened and the enemy helped me come up with a plan to free myself, be responsible, be right. Protect myself from that which would harm me, no 'other' will. This was another in a long line that turned out to teach me not to trust anyone but what do laws do? They excite the flesh, so alternately I have been enslaved to others opinion of me; running from this one to that one crying, "Give me, give me, take my rags and give me proper clothing" -- a covering for my shame that I did not know that Jesus has already done for me, for us.
So, here was this little girl who I now know, in her head was being bent toward being responsible for herself, not believing herself being worth anyone else taking care for. and I see her little face and Holy's thoughts come, should she feel responsible for herself? Can she be? And I cry a little, how to let it go?! Incrementally. Meaning, today, make the choice again to let it go, and trust in the One you know inside is trustworthy, even though there is still some brush and huge rooted trees in the way that make you think He is not. Amen (so be it Lord)
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