And

Amy

Desire strongly

yourself

Desire God

Desire good

Desire all that is good and beautiful

We were made for this


And 

we also hold,

you do, with us

the pains as well

The griefs

the fears

the evils too heavy to bear

These we hold 

together

May it be

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